| Always a minor set back, but I must remember that it's minor. |
[25 Feb 2007|11:05am] |
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It's taken a little longer to move out than expected. Since I have a very low income, trying to catch up on things we need is a little harder than I thought, but not by much. At least now I have a car that will last me couple of years until I can afford to buy a new one.
Pagoda got sick this last week and we were freaking out that it may have been parvo. He hasn't had his shots yet, although he should, it's just that I haven't had the time or all the money. Pagoda just had a minor stomach virus from eating yogurt that was spilled on the floor, and eating paper. I am starting his shots this week, and I will probably finish those up in sac.
We're hoping to move by mid-end next month. I have my final face to face interview at the Wells Fargo Call Center in Natomas. I'm also sure I will get the job. It's 6 weeks training starting at $13 an hour. After that it's Monday - Friday, 8am - 5pm. Although I heard you have the option of working 2 pm - 11pm you get a dollar more an hour. I would love to do that because it fits in perfectly well with my sleeping hours ;) plus a dollar more does add up. Anyways, once I get this job, the first paycheck alone will help me move out in no time.
I also have plans set up for starting a wedding and event photography business to help out while I'm here, then take it with me when we move down to LA. I have to hunt down a couple people for photo release forms. I will also be getting a business loan that will help me get all the equipment I need for starting out, including a pretty souped up G5 that Kevin has on layaway.
I keep freaking out about minor setback that keep coming along. I also forget that they really aren't affecting anything except my ego. I'm getting over it.
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[24 Jan 2007|11:07am] |
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And I'm gone. So long NorCal.
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| I have my puppy |
[13 Jan 2007|10:45am] |
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I was going to name him Sancho, but he just didn't look like Sancho. Instead, I named him Pagoda.
Pagoda is crazy! Crazy full of LOVE! he's actually pretty fucking funny. He's learned so much and I've had him for less than 24 hrs. He did keep me up for the most part of the night because the little bastard was all depressed yesterday and decided just to lounge around instead of acting like a good fucking puppy and playing with me. I grabbed him by the throat and told him if he didn't fucking cheer up soon I'd throw him in a stew. I think I made him feel better when I told him i was only joshin because I don't eat meat.
kidding. He was depressed for the most part of the day though. I think thats why he was up all night, so I would play with him while he was up. He has a tendency to bite when he plays, which doesn't hurt, but I don't let him hang on too long because I don't want him to think it's ok. Finally at 9am he fell asleep next to me. he's still asleep and now I must get ready for work. but I don't want to leave him. it's only for 4 hours though, so I guess it's not big deal.
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| So this is the new year... |
[02 Jan 2007|01:10pm] |
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New year hype is just that, Hype. Although, I do look forward to the rest of my life.
Over the last month or so, I have been sorting through all my clutter, physically and mentally. They both go hand in hand. I've been able to pick apart and organize what I want to do and how to actually get it done. It takes baby steps, and though I always try to make the big leaps, whether I make them or not, I always have to go back and clean up my mess. It could take me 10 days, 10 months, or even 10 years back, and only 10 hours to clean out.
I realize now that even in the past when I did move on, I couldn't completely move on because I literally could not let go. I once believed that holding on to the little things would remind me where I came from, and that was home to me. I like remembering, especially good things, I always have, but you can't live in the past, nor can you re-live it. Even though I am getting rid of so much, what matters most will always be with me, physically or mentally.
I'm not the same person I was 2 years ago. I'm not the same person I was at 18. I'm embracing change without fear (not like I used to.) There will be a lot of work involved, thats adulthood for you.
Now to start this mission. The cleaning of my room.
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| Copied from my myspace |
[22 Dec 2006|10:58am] |
My sister and brother-in-law flew me out to indianapolis last saturday so that I could assist them driving back to california (they are moving back.) Kansas has a lot of ADULT SUPERSTORES, along with a bunch church billboards about abortion to be followed. Colorado and Utah were covered in snow. As a surprise, they took me to Vegas. The first night we stayed there, I was woken up by our neighbors who were having loud, obnoxious sex (later to find out it was an asian man with his bigger white girlfriend, NICE!) Lost 100 bucks to slot machines (and people wonder why I don't gamble.) Hit up a really good buffet, only to realize that I have become a pesco-vegetarian. I didn't have to pay for anything on this trip, so I made out ok. I am home now, and am awaiting the arrival of my puppy.
thats about it.
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| instantly better. |
[26 Nov 2006|09:45am] |
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That was a quicker recovery than I imagined. Probably because it was long overdue.
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| too effing tired. |
[29 Oct 2006|07:52pm] |
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The Radio Dept. |
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yes I wore myself out, but luckly, I saved myself before I had a major breakdown. I gave Red Robin my 2 weeks notice yesterday. It's a waste of my time. Although there are quite a few people I will miss. Not so much like the last time around. I'm really hoping things go through with the Forbes house, I really need them to.
I got to see Bailey tonight. That girl is good people. I'm tired of people's selfish bullshit, and I have been filtering the good and the bad. Just because certain people can be entertaining, doesn't make them an acception. I hate that. I like being reminded that even in a world full of malice, there is still some good.
As tired as I am, I'm pretty happy.
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Lanlord of Tamales is trying to raise rent by a couple g's. so we would be paying roughly around 3-4 thousand a month. crazy. We are looking into the Historic Forbes house. I made an appointment to meet with the owner on the 7th of next month, and with enough convincing, my uncle has decided to check it out. If we do get this place, everything will be different, in a good way. It's a much better location and there are major perks. I would probably quit Red Robin to help out more, mainly because there are going ot be a LOT of cut backs (my mom's place, not Red Robin). Let see how this goes.
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| it was a teenage wedding and the old folks wished them well... |
[22 Oct 2006|09:42am] |
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It's pretty funny to watch your co-workers drink themselves stupid. I don't see how you can face anyone after your ass was hanging out for everyone to see because someone had to pick you up and take you out to your designated drivers vehicle. We will find out today when Regina comes in for her shift!
Winner for best Costume goes to Carlos! He dressed in drag. How depressing, almost every girl that went dressed like a whore, and yet Carlos still looked better than every one of them.
Anyone 21 and over going to lipstick on halloween?? If so, call me. I will be there.
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| I guess I got what I wanted |
[20 Oct 2006|02:41pm] |
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More or less, what I deserve.
I've spent too much time away from photo, but I got back into drawing. I like it. I didn't think I would like it again. I've also been reading a lot more. I don't spend much time at home anymore, for good reasons.
I got Pneumonia last week. or as Uncle mike likes to call it, AIDS. That put me out of work for a week. I'm going back to work tonight to spread the AIDS to bastard children.
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| coke |
[05 Aug 2006|09:49am] |
Peaches & Eagles Of Death Metal TONIGHT in SF!!!
"What else is in the teaches of peaches? huh? what?"
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[11 Jul 2006|07:57pm] |
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LOST IN TRANSLATION.
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| make up make up |
[09 Jul 2006|09:22am] |
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Those of you that know me well (or not at all), I've really gotten into make-up over the last year. I've gotten pretty good at it too. I started playing around with it because it came in handy for photographs. I just recieved a 24 sparkle true color/ mac glitter sample set. the colors are fucking AMAZING. I was playing around with them last night, never will I be able to wear these shades on an average make-up day, but they are definetly going to be bad ass in my photo's. Now I await the pink bronze. I need to buy a copper sparkle and some cream shadows. Make-up is EFFING great.
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| IF A MOVIE WAS MADE OF YOUR LIFE... |
[20 Jun 2006|08:02pm] |
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WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
So, here's how it works:
Open your music player
Put it on SHUFFLE.
Press play.
For every "scene" type the song that's on.
When you go to a new question press the next button.
Try not to pick and choose, unless they TOTALLY don't fit. Have fun
Opening Credits:
*Age Of Consent - New Order (i dig)
Waking Up:
*I Will Be Grateful for This Day - Bright Eyes
Falling in Love:
*Black Out - Crustacean Devistation
Fight scene:
*The More You Ignore Me - Morrisey (god that sounds dramatic)
Breaking up:
*November - Azure Ray (weird)
Getting back together:
*The Charming Man - The Smiths
Secret Love:
*Misguided Angel - Cowboy Junkies (even weirder, but i like it)
Life's okay:
*Birthday - The Sugarcubes (ok)
Mental breakdown:
*The Scientist - Coldplay (hrm)
Driving:
*Frankly Mr. Shankly - Cursive (badass cover-and I hate covers)
Flashback:
*Oh You Are The Roots That Sleep Benethe My Feet And Hold The World In Place - Bright Eyes (nice)
Drunk Dance:
*Flying At Tree Level (Version 1.0) - Brand New (eh, ok)
Happy dance:
*Where is my Mind - The Pixies (yay)
Regretting:
*Maps (acoustic) - Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Long night alone:
*Landlocked Blues - Bright Eyes (:()
Death scene:
*The Killing Moon - Echo and The Bunnymen (?)
Ending credits:
*Perfect Day - Not sure? hrm
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| Oh DEAR GOD. I have returned. |
[17 Jun 2006|02:09pm] |
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I kind of miss this, plus I went to keep in better touch with Rosa ♥
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| goodbye. |
[25 Oct 2004|12:33am] |
Every day I always come to find
Everyone's dumb and blind
I say just FUCKIT all
I know it's fairless, heartless, careless...
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